•My biggest flaw•
I have lots of imperfections like everyone else does but I have one that stand out.
My biggest flaw is not feeling and not believing I’m good enough.
Physically is most of it, feeling like my butts not big enough, like my waist isn’t small enough, like I’m not pretty enough to the fact that I seek outwards validation. It dawned on me today why I dress in a ‘provocative’ way, you know booty hanging out, cleavage pushed up.
It’s not because I want men to look at me, it’s not like that. It’s the validation of knowing other people think you look good, just the eyes on you that they can’t pull away, and I know it really shouldn’t but it validates me and it makes me feel good enough even though I should already feel that way about myself.
I’m always comparing myself to others because I feel like others compare me too and like I need to measure up.
I’ve been thinking about getting injections to fill in my hip dips, plastic surgery on my body and some people will say cool girl go for it and I’m one of them but only if it’s not because you feel you need it but I feel like I do...
I feel like I’m not good enough for someone to love, not good enough for someone to commit to, for someone to stay loyal and faithful to.
I feel like I’m not good enough, not now, not ever and I can work out all I want to sculpt my body but I could have my dream body and I still wouldn’t feel good enough, I know.
But how do you fill that void with people around you seeming to be better in every way.. making you feel not good enough?
I chose these photos and vid for this post because I never feel good enough when I’m not in makeup and I hate it and I hate how I look front on, you probably already know from all the side on photos though 😩❤️
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