Honestly, the last 24 hours were spent grumpy and nauseous and craving pancakes while doing the strict diet protocol for my SIBO breath test this morning.
I know that the digestion issues I’ve been experiencing for a really long time now are separate from my Crohn’s. Perhaps that’s what caused them originally. I won’t get into the medical details right now, but now that my Crohn’s is getting better, (**cute me knocking on wood and saying every prayer***) my digestion still remains absolute s**t for lack of a better term. At this point, I can tell that it’s taken on a mind of its own.
I know the difference between the pain I feel deep in my stomach from a flare vs. this. This is something else. And I know my body.
I know my body, and that’s why I was actually the one who asked to have this test done.
Do I want to have SIBO? Heck no. Everyone knows that SIBO is a b**ch to treat and get rid of.
After talking with @gut__instincts yesterday, I feel like anyone with any kind of chronic illness can relate to this: it’s not that I WANT anything to be wrong, I just KNOW that something is, and so I want answers. I want clarity. I want validation of my symptoms and I want to be able to tackle whatever it is head on.
When you have a chronic illness, you become so incredibly in tune with your body. In a way, it’s a blessing and a curse. You’re forced to feel and analyze every symptom so closely, but you also learn how to become an advocate for yourself, because you know your body better than anyone else.
So, maybe I do have SIBO or maybe it’s something else. Either way, I’m going to continue to listen to what my body’s telling me and I’m going to continue to fight for it until I have the answers to the problems I know are there. I know my body, and I owe it that much.