I’ve been avoiding my yoga account for some time because I didn’t think I had anything worthy to share, my practice is more of an every hour on the hour series of modified cobras and up dogs just so I can make it through a work day. Movement feels foreign, I miss it, but I’m just now realizing that sometimes unfortunate circumstances insinuate the best time to share.
The last time I posted I spoke of hip pain, that was in January. At the time I thought that hip pain morphed into lumbar back pain as a result of me compensating. But, the pain intensified and spread down my right leg and I’ve since learned it was a new injury. My treatment team is suspecting a disc herniation at the L5/S1 transition which is pressing on a root nerve (cue a pain I’ve never felt before). And here I am, in appointments 5x a week, admittedly on pain killers, awaiting an mri, and living a highly modified lifestyle, searching for relief from this nerve pain that now affects sitting, standing, walking, really anything that requires hip flexion or right leg extension.
Months of this has emotionally exhausted me. I’m trying to remain hopeful and positive, but I keep hearing that I should of seen improvement by now, and I haven’t, so as the pain gets worse my patience becomes slimmer. My reaction fuse is easily triggered in the midst of it all, and that leaves me feeling less myself - less in control of who I am.
Where this is coming from now is the revelation that so many individuals suffer from back pain, pain in general. So many have tried what feels like everything to find relief, but no luck. So many have had to put their lives on hold because it’s hard to be, let alone act. I’m only sitting at a few months, others have dealt with this reality for years.
So here I am laying on my mat, doing what I’ve found to be even remotely effective thus far. And that’s what I want to start sharing, what I’ve tried, so that it could potentially help others in similar situations. This “pain management practice” is definitely non-resembling of the old, here’s to hoping it can benefit someone out there. 🍋 When life gives you lemons (pain) make lemonade (change) 🍋